Since starting this "journey" coming up to a year now (I think).I have heard from different platforms, content creators and so on that you are not broken. I don't know about you but I am broken. The text book ADHD definition does describe the challenges and everyone seems to have many in common. How is that not broken? Bad comprehension, no focus, poor memory, missing details, friendless, alone, isolating, loss of interest, hurting yourself just walking through a door, carelessness, not caring, caring to much, nothing to give back, being treated badly, bad decisions, gut wrenching memories, expensive mistakes plus all the other things. How is that not broken? It makes me sick just thinking about it. If you do just one little thing how does that help you to get anything done or support yourself? I do not want to lose this fight, to get it right. I'm in panic zone, I have to find a way out, I'm not young and do not want to end up like this. I have to get it together. On a positive note, I have improved, had a pretty good run for awhile. I want so much more for myself and losing ground. It's hard to watch now that I can see.

Ok, question for everyone.... I know everyone has their own opinion on medicine for ADHD, but right now in this stage of my life I do need/want it. I will eventually get off but that is not where I am right now. My question is, "The Caffeine trap". I take Adderall twice a day, morning and afternoon.... ummmm well I know that Adderall does not have specifically caffeine in it but is affecting my sleep for sure.... thoughts??? and I may be addicted to Dr. Pepper Zero... I'm just saying....

I run three companies, have won several awards, work out almost every day, but more importantly, I can finally say that I live a peaceful and fulfilling life. A few years ago, I was an exhausted gaming addict who didn’t even dare to open his own mail. Here’s what happened. The kid with the headphones is me, around ten years old. I spent years escaping into games, because real life felt too overwhelming to face. Later the games became festivals. Every weekend: party, drinking, numbing. Every Monday: flat, anxious, useless. From the outside it looked like fun. From the inside it was mail I didn't dare open, a room I couldn't keep clean, 15 minute tasks I procrastinated on for months, and one word on repeat in my head: lazy. The bottom photos are the part I almost didn't post. The numbing. The version of me that eventually burned out completely, sitting at his desk at 2am wondering what was wrong with him. By then I'd spent over 30K on courses and programs to fix myself. Finished none of them. Now the right side. The gym, almost daily. The water tower is my office. I rent the top floor and work there with my brother and my best friend. The purple one is the T500, an award for tech entrepreneurs here in the Netherlands. I am traveling the world. I don't show you this to brag, and before your brain says "good for him": my life is not perfect. I still have ADHD. I still lose my keys, I still overcommit, I still have days where nothing works. So what changed? Not discipline. I still have almost none. Not an app or a planner. Those all worked for about nine days. Not the diagnosis, and not the medication. That's a story for another day. What changed is who I believed I was. On Monday I'll tell you exactly what I mean, including something I found in my old school reports that I had zero memory of. And maybe your left side looks nothing like mine. No gaming, no festivals. Maybe yours is quieter: the to-do list that makes you want to cry. The anxiety before opening one email. Being exhausted at 3pm after a day of doing "nothing". Overthinking every conversation afterwards. Procrastinating on exactly the things you care about most. The fear of being judged if people saw the real state of things. Calling yourself lazy while what you actually are is overwhelmed.

Hey everyone, Jim here. Three things announced today. 1. The next 5-Day Challenge kicks off August 31: Free, live, and rebuilt from the ground up. This is the best version we've ever run. Save your spot here. Then do the part that actually decides whether you show up. Open your own calendar, block the hour on all five days, and set two reminders. For brains like ours, if it's not in the calendar it doesn't exist. Do it now, while this post is still on your screen. It takes two minutes. 2. Still finishing something something? You have until July 20 ⚠️ If you're working through the ADHD Focus Reset or the current 5-Day Challenge, they stay open through Monday July 20. After that everything closes until August 31. 3. New onboarding, and a new AI experience: The ADHD Operating Manual. The first section is free for every member, so you can try it before you decide. The full version is $27 right now instead of $99. Temporary. And that $27 is one single payment, no subscription. It also opens the chat with my AI twin: three messages a day, every day, all the way until the challenge starts on August 31. Ask it why you keep doing that one thing, and it answers with everything it already knows about you from your own reports. So tell me where you're at. Vote in the poll, it takes one tap. And if you're coming August 31, type a comment below and include the word: CHALLENGE and let us know how excited you are 🥳 With love, 💛 Jim

I was enjoying spending some time with an old acquaintance friend. I don't have any and decided I was going to be myself, not the fake me. Well, it didn't work. I must have said or done something as she is avoiding me. I recognized something wasn't right but wrote it off "no body likes me thing". It's clear she is avoiding me now. I went over everything and I have my suspicion what it could be, "my mouth". It could be something else as well. I was feeling the rejection twisted stomach starting and do not want to feel that way. So, if she doesn't want to be my friend "let her". If I have done something, it's up to her to tell me. I am not going to guess what it could be or feel rejected. I want people around me that will accept me the way I am. I also believe it's not all about me, she has her reasons for feeling that way. For the first time in my life I am open to finding some friends and I will get better at it. I consider myself in training.