I have never posted in here, and I can’t say I did this journey completely because that would be me not being honest. I will say I’ve read every text sent out and I’ve read each testimony on here. However I feel like I’m really struggling right now. I wish I could put into words how I feel. I feel that the devil has really been fighting me, and I want to be a better Christian but I don’t know how. I feel my relationship has struggled a lot to the point of almost losing the person I chose to spend the rest of my life with due to me being selfish and negative at times. I strive to be a good mom but at times I fall short, I get aggravated and over stimulated. I want to be a better step mom to my step kids. Someone who they love to be around, someone who they look up to. I find myself questioning why others have it so easy, why they never struggle financially or emotionally. I’ve really want God to fix me. I want him to change me into someone I can be proud of. I want him to help me want to stop being in control all the time and to just let him write my story. I want to be the type of person people want to be around and that they feel being around me is a light. I just really want God to change the person I have been the last few years, because I am not happy with this person. I don’t want to be her anymore. Please pray for me