Man, I feel that. What you're describing isn't lingo. It's the moment something in you stops accepting the story you were handed and starts asking better questions. That shift is real, and it's yours. Nobody hands you that. You find it. Here's the thing I'd say as your brother in this: the "waking up" part is the easy part. It feels good, it feels clarifying, it feels like you finally see it. The harder part, and the part that actually changes your life, is what you do with it Monday morning. Not the insight. The discipline after the insight. So take the fire you're feeling right now and point it somewhere specific. Not at "the system" in the abstract. At the one pattern in your own life that's kept you smaller than you know you are. Where are you still asking permission? Where are you still regulating your worth by other people's approval? That's the real matrix, the one running in your nervous system, not the one out there. You don't need to convince anyone or perform the awakening. Just live different. That's what actually frees you. Allow your actions to speak what word aren't able to do. Gregg