my other struggle is riding my 10 yr old gelding, yes i mouthed and broke him and have ridden him many times but he is still green and scares me a bit. whereas my paly mare i can do anything on, im the only one thats done anything my 2 domestics over the last 20 yrs. yes i have a diploma in equine management and was a vet nurse and human nurse. but since retiring i do struggle.