Adding body health to the mix!

The belief that holds me back the most is that I don't have the power (strength), ability or even deserve the success of fulfilling my dreams, finishing projects and achieving my goals. I can't pinpoint the source. I know it affects me the most when I'm feeling down or depressed. I'm not sure which comes first. My new code is that I'm not broke and I deserve along with have the energy to finish things and reach my goals. I am the person who has the strength and desire to complete tasks and projects that enrich my life without procrastination.

Acknowledged my mask as being strong and fiercely independent. Moving on to listing my small steps for organizing my paper work, mail and overall clutter on my desk: 1. Clear a work area 2. Create areas to make separate piles for mail, bills, receipts, taxes, items to be filed, etc. 3. Go through one pile at a time and eliminate or file.

My nagging open loop is organizing my desk - paper work, mail, bills, items to be filled, etc.

So the ciggy break, the beer, the "one more episode" - turns out none of it's about the ciggy. It's just me trying to take my head away from what's heavy, and then the disappointment afterwards sends me straight back for the next one. Never seen it as a loop before. Also worked out my brain says "plan first" purely so I'll go and do something else.