https://youtu.be/IY9v3qRnuYE?si=gZgslzMXX6vLwUuf For those of you who have not scene the classic comedy Office Space, this is how the movie starts.

I saw this chart today and thought its a great representation of the journey we go on. The chart represents the frequency of emotions and how they effect how we feel and in-turn the reality that we create. The top 4 are your natural state and also the state to heal from. The bottom half represent a lot of the repressed emotions we carry around and how they keep us in a low vibrational state. The emotional states that stick out to me are Fear, Anger, Guilt and Shame. When we carry these emotions around it affects everything in our life, our health, our relationships and the environment we create for our families. The process we teach allows you to consciously release these low frequency emotions so you can exist in this natural high-frequency state. Where do you normally reside?

Lately as some of you have heard me on the calls I've been having some difficulties getting embodied and witnessing. I'd say these emotions were tricking me, I was attaching! Confused, scared, no confidence. Inner dialogue was confused, doubtful, and I was attaching to all of it. I had a realization during todays session, got deep down into what I think was a pivotal moment for me. I saw an embarrassed Nick, 5th grade, doing a pretend job interview as part of a class assignment. There were kids parents on campus holding interviews and I chose a construction worker career path because I thought that was the easy way out, no education needed, not much thought or homework required... I thought I would skate through it, and of course I didn't. I didn't even get the job, I failed the assignment! All these emotions set in, and I felt defeated for a long time after that, "I'm not smart enough for college. Oh that requires a degree? I'll pass. I'm too lazy. I should've repeated grade school, my parents are always so frustrated when I ask for help. I shouldn't need this much help." I had dropped the dreams, the intuition, and I watched from the outside. Look at everyone around me so driven, continued education with degrees, I'll just work an easy job that I can tolerate and let my free time be my life, "work to live not live to work". I have settled for far too long! Here's a quote from Pink Floyd, I use to be on the side of the coin that felt that too much time had passed, and that I was too late. Never in my life did I think I would be where I am today. I settled, gave up on too much and tried to absolutely burry that feeling of being too stupid or lazy, distracted or incapable. But I'm feeling reborn at 34, and in control. Time " You are young and life is long, and there is time to kill today. And then one day you find ten years have got behind you. No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun".

22 months I've been doing this Work at some level. Every day. Either listening, releasing, or integrating. It's been the most consistent pattern of activity in my life that I can recall. Daily work on a single purpose. It's progressed every day with no standstills. Anger has been maybe, MAYBE, 5% of the early life emotions that have come up...And when it has, it's been very brief of weak. Sadness, anxiety, fear, shame... largely has been the flavor for two years. I mentioned in last weeks call that a 2nd figure has shown up in my visions. One that I cannot clearly make out. He is me, but older than 'childhood'. My original inner child avatar was clearly me at 4-6 yrs old. He's now by my side in my visions, largely smiling, content. The 2nd figure is adolescent sized, pacing, in the distance, sort of shrouded in darkness...He'll turn toward me, yet he's just a dark obscure figure. When he originally appeared, he was physically active in emoting - waving arms, grabbing hair, using muscle tense postures. He's since calmed a bit, but the feels are still here. His face is becoming visible, morphing between different ages & outfits...But they're all adolescent versions of myself - 14-17 yrs old maybe. And he's pissed. The needs not being met...Or love held hostage for 'proper' behavior, being rewarded for being someone else. He's got that smirk like he's over it & ready to fuck some shit up. It feels that he was waiting for that 4-6 younger me to heal until he could have his day. The couple sessions I've done recently have been deep strong feelings. I mentioned in the call of my entire torso releasing energy... Now these are pointed deep in the chest (not surprisingly solar plexus region) and across the mid-lat band of my back. The energy electrifies my arms into clenched fists, like a slack winch line pulling tight against the anchors of my spine & wrist. This is different. It appears teenage me is ready to roll. I'm excited to work through this 'new' prior-season of my baggage. I've not yet had a teen-centric theme. Will be interesting what comes.

I'm delighted to announce that the film we made in November last year is finished and ready to launch to the public. I'd like to say a special thanks to everyone that was vulnerable enough to share their stories - @Ben Valdovinos @Andrew Rotter @Bryant Goodall @Nick Valdovinos @Sam Johnson @Patrick Camman and to the talented team that made the film - @Marcus Ubungen @Donavan Sell This work can life changing for everyone that goes through the pain and comes out the other side. You guys are the first to see it. Please watch and let us know what you think. Watch link - https://youtu.be/4ldWtO4-Cm8