I find it really hard to contemplate, sometimes I manage it well but I need to be really focused. When I try I find my mind wandering into every day issues yet i don’t seem to have a problem meditating.

I am practising honesty. When I'm feeling something, I admit to feeling it. When I'm thinking something, I admit to thinking it. (I used to treat my thoughts and feelings differently in the past. Instead of naming the actual feelings and thoughts, I 'redesigned' them in the way I'd rather have them be and focused on that 'version'.) As a result, I've begun trusting my own word. I no longer have qualms about whether I'm being genuine or if my motives are what I think they are. I think this experience could be called authenticity. I'm curious about other people's experiences around self-trust, if that is something you would like to share.