The depth of your struggle is the height of your success.

Been coming to the gym late at night usually around 10pm or even midnight in an attempt to avoid all the people. Literally sacrificing my sleep at night since I’ve gotta be up by 5am just to avoid all the people. I’ve been being an anxious pussy worried about all the people seeing me. Today I had to come to the gym around 530 pm and I was all nervous about it as ridiculous as that sounds. Wasn’t so bad. Actually made me work even harder knowing people could see what I was doing. Probably gonna start coming right after work more often. Gotta stop letting anxiety hold me back and instead use it as a tool to know what I need to be doing.

If you aren’t a LOTR fan you won’t get it….

I was talking with Hayden today and we were sharing about our sports and physiques in high school and I looked back at some of the pictures I took from then and compared them to now and holy cow. I didn’t realize the actual toll my actions have taken on my body. I knew where I had brought myself to mentally and spiritually but physically? I wonder where I’d be right now if I’d have picked up the gym everyday instead of substances. It hurts. Just wanted to share because I know I’m not the only one and I have an encouragement for everyone from scripture. I can’t take the last verse out of context, but the principle applies the same. 1 Corinthians 6:18-20 [18] Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. [19] Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, [20] for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body. I have not glorified God with my body in a long time. And seeing where I’ve stood when I have been vs. when I haven’t been is eye opening. Not that I was jacked before hahah, but I had a much better muscle to fat ratio.