Today is day 50 amazingly I got through it. It’s tough trying to do it with no government money no homeless village money and there are millions of dollars there somewhere. I just not gonna go hunting. I spent 3 1/2 years trying to get housing I had to pay for out of my pocket. I had to fund it on my own. I got no government money other than my pension. I didn’t get immigration money to rescue me when I came to the country. I didn’t get a bonus I didn’t get anything extra. I’m working with my base tension and I’m trying to do this without any homeless village money and there are millions and I’m trying to do this with the government hand out money and there are billions you know why. It has to be would be done If we can’t do this on our own, we are not pioneers We do not deserve to start communities And we do not deserve to lead And there’s nothing wrong with being a follower But if you’re not wanting to go without any sacrifice everything for the sake of everything else, humanity has there there’s no point in trying And you might as well go get a 9-to-5 job and work in a cubicle for 40 years retire and have a bunch of cause the price of success is either pain or regret You get to choose pain cost more in a short run or regret cost more in You get to choose

today a friend of mine called me crazy I’ve been fighting that label for decades. He wouldn’t back down. He thought it was funny and amusing for him and his team was teaming because he signed the paycheque so they had to laugh at the fucking joke against me it hurt like hell I don’t wanna be hurt like that’s why I’ve just lost a friend today. Your friend has been helpful very helpful and I’m very sad tonight, but I’m not gonna take any abused it triggers, anger, and I don’t need an I just don’t wanna play that game. If you wanna hurt me just I don’t wanna be around you. Would you be around someone that’s gonna hurt you why walk away?

3 1/2 years ago I became homeless fuck boy run I’m home wow

I have a room for those that don’t know it’s probably 12 x 16 that’s my entire living space I’ve never been so fucking happy. I have a desk band a TV tray to eat on a little suitcase with laundry and I take the laundry that I’m taking on my first paycheque and I’m gonna have clean clothes again and I’ll be fine. I have clean Books now thanks to my friends generously lovingly donating holding and also a really cool things including a comforter today. This got stars and moons on it. It’s like a wizard comforter the coolest thing ever I can’t wait to go to bed tonight. I’m really excited i’m happier than I’ve ever been in a very very very very very very very long time even with the head we were taken care of maybe tomorrow if I get my motivated shit on a lot I started journalling again. It’s kind of cool. I’m enjoying that I started writing again. I’m enjoying that I started visiting again and not looking to make something happen so I can get a meal or something because I have a Boston macaroni at home yeah I have six boxes of macaroni at home actually so that’s like six and I can store that safely in my room 16 x 18 or whatever it says and it would be OK and I can come home and get the water out of the tap and I can boil it on the stove I can drain it in the sink on the colder that my friend gifted the house and it’s a fucking coolest thing ever. I’m just so fucking happy there’s some pictures of day 37 and I thank you for participating in The hat or high on school experiment in reality and morphine and Christie, whatever the fuck we can do here because it doesn’t actually matter because they were all dead. Here are some pictures.

This is the project I am working on