Write a second edition of my book, with much more effective editing. Start a regular Substack. Start a podcast. There's more, but that's enough.

@Elena Soloviev your comments are very similar to "Jim's Twin".

When I was a kid my family belonged to a swim club. The pool wasn't heated, and it was in PA, so the water was always cold. Funny, but after the first few minutes the water didn't feel so cold, in fact it was pretty comfortable. I only knew it was cold when my lips and fingernails turned purple. But that was me, not you. If cold water just isn't your thing, maybe try cooler water, but start out with hot, so the cooler temp is refreshing but not shocking. Or, maybe try something else to get a similar result. The thing about a cold shower is that it's basically free and you can do it from the comfort of your own home.

@Denise Griffith Yup, rent mailed. Also went to the bank to make a deposit, and texted the landlord to let them know that the rent was mailed. Now if only I can take the same focus of purpose to other things I want to get done, that would be great.

It looks like the help from Evelina could take you to the place you want to go. I understand your feelings, feel the same ones a lot. When I get confused or don't understand an assignment or directions, I get very frustrated and just want to leave. I hope you stay and take things one step at a time. I encourage you to consider that your efforts will be worth your energy and stick-to-it-ness.