It's been pretty quiet here the last couple of months. I expect moving to Bulgaria is time consuming. As for me, my quiet comeback has become a raging river of activity. Here's what's happened since I began my quiet comeback. 1. I confronted my family issues, dealt with them and moved forwards. 2. Re engaged with my flying and passed my PPL. 3. Obtained a research place on a solar project (I left astronomy behind some years ago and regretted it). Now I'm making a positive contribution on something 99% of people don't even realise exists. 4. I went up for an audition for a part in a show that I had always dreampt of and nailed it, (I used to be a professional actor, singer, dancer and always regretted having to leave it behind). 5. I have found inner peace and confidence the like of which I could never have imagined. I love life and I'm not afraid anymore. 6. I have returned to live performance singing as a cabaret artist. My new goals: 1. Professional photoshoot in November, going to look my best ever. 2. Signed up for my instrument and duel engine ratings for flying. 3. Publishing new research in my chosen field. 4. Continuing to reconnect with those that support me. 5. Beginning a live stream lecture series for under grads in my chosen field. This has all happened in just over 12 months. Yes, it was hard work. Was it worth it.....HELL YES!!!! I'm nothing special, I just had a vision of what my life could and should be and had the sense to seek out those who could genuinely help me. I added the hard work and effort. Go grab your future you.

I'm not actually after answer to what my worth, is, but it is something I've focused on in the past. I've been on a heck of a journey over the last year with many changes in the right direction. I'm still learning and I'm happy to continue moving forward. Similar words have probably been said by wiser people than I but here goes. A persons value isn't based on what they think others think of them, or indeed actually what they think of them, it's not even based on what you think of yourself, because that's shaped by others. I believe your value is based on how you allow others to treat you. If you allow someone to treat you like shit, You'll feel like shit and others will feel the same way too. If someone makes you feel bad, correct them or cut them out I'm not experiencing this problem myself at the moment, but I have a close friend who's not in a great place, but they are allowing others treat them badly. Just thought I'd share my thoughts.

Well after thinking 2025 was a rollercoaster of losing 2 close relatives and being made redundent, 2026 has said “hold my beer”! So while I continue to try get a money stream in, job hunting seems to be a case of constant rejection or near misses, and while there’s lots of good comment about my own consultancy nothing solid is on the horizon, while in the background the small amount of savings needed to top up what little benefits we get up is dwindling away I now have the news that at 51 I’m going to be a Dad again! Now one thing is for sure, despite all of this I can’t help but keep smiling and being that ‘fun guy’ while it appears the world is burning around me and my head is a scrambled mess trying to process all of this

How do people. Hopeyou are all good. Just got in here. Listened to all the podcasts and thought this is definitely a bit of me, so im pleased to be part of the community 😊

Afternoon all and thanks for listening. I'm having a difficult time at the moment, and it's down to guilt. My wife and I have been together for 19 years, married for 9. Before I go any further, I haven't cheated on her or anything like that. My wife has always had some social anxiety as long as I have known her, but she was able to have a active social life by convincing herself to get over it. However like many people during lockdown she had a lot of time on her own as I was still working and we weren't allowed to go out. It was during this time she started to realise that it wasn't just social anxiety, it was something more. After three years of waiting and lots of crying she finally got some help, it turns out she has ADHD and autism, actually it's called AUDHD. If you know anything about this subject you'll know that once someone has unmasked and realised that their are reasons to why she feels the way she does, it impossible for some to pretend that they don't have issues and to be honest why should they pretend to be someone they aren't. I've given a very oversimplified version of what has happened to her. As a result of my wife's realisation of her problems she stopped going out or at least didn't take it up again after lockdown. My wife's so called friends didn't much care for the fact that she no longer wanted to be going out and getting drunk with them, so they all stopped talking to her, their was a group of six of them that were all meant to be close, but they just dumped her. This obviously devastated her and she still cries about it many years on. I am still friends with many of the girls partners, but I can't talk to them about the situation because they are obviously to close to it. I did try to patch things up with my wife and the girls, but it didn't work and to be honest they don't deserve my wife as a friend if they are so willing to dump her the way they did. The fact that I still see the lads is one reason I feel guilty but not the only one.