I can't do anything right. The came from my mother who always picked out the slightest mistake in anything I did. I remember being older and I typed a 6 page essay for her that she wrote out by hand and the only thing she said was "you spelled week" wrong. No thank you, no appreciate you taking the time to do this. Rewriting my code: I can't do anything right - I may not get everything right, but I am learning, growing, and doing better than I realize. Future statement. “I may make mistakes, but my successes and growth are greater than my setbacks.”

Posting on social media is the task I have been avoiding

I felt crap missing the sessions as they’re 4am NZ time and good luck waking me up 🤣 BUT massive relief I’ve got this weekend to smash them out! My open loop is getting my mail redirected before I move to another town in just over a week 🤦‍♀️ tomorrow, 10am, in the lounge, with the….. phone and internet I guess lol.

I left my phone out yesterday when going to bed! I woke up, did my own rituals, took my first dopamine cold shower ... 💦💦💦💦💦 Ready for the last 5/5 day happy and with a new AHA . The trash bags....I realized a big thing. I'm not a hoarder, I'm not lazy. I was stuck by the window looking my mum go with something in her hands (the trashes) and came back with empty hands. My 4yr old me have been carrying this sight 62yrs and now I realized ...the idea of people leaving with something in their hands means everybody can leave when ever they want, the door is open. But only a couple of years have I started keeping things in my home. To barricade me inside and others out. JT asked me while we talked what would I like to say to me, the 4yr old. I told him " my mum loved me, saw me and heard me always in the best way she could after experiensing so traumatic childhood. She did what she was able. She came back. It wasn't anything to blame or ignore me. " and now I want to add a couple of things...I wish I didn't have to experience all the shit I went through after that year I was 4, but now I understand. I told my mother has Alzheimer's, but I know those words are her words I heard 💖🙏🏽 I am so grateful to each and everyone of these magical 5-days🙏🏽💖Bless you all 💖 thank you thank you thank you

Hi everyone! I finally had the time and attention span to figure stuff out. Very late, but here