It’s been a while since my last post, I’m alive and on the road to recovery with the knee surgery. I’ve been on the right path, physically moving along great and ahead of schedule per my doctor and PT team. BUT I wasn’t me. The lack of working, moving, really being able to do anything began to hit me hard mentally. I’d play it off fine to family, friends and colleagues, but I haven’t been fine. The second major surgery in 8 months and the excessive downtime finally got to me. My life had become a routine of getting up, PT, home to ice, make a few calls and then I was finished for the day. I was unable to go search for new opportunities, work out, cook, basically the things that justified my daily existence. I was at my breaking point and then I got the OK to return to 50% work, I can visit customers again and interact but no walking job sites, which I’m good with.
I got this Andy Frisella motivation today and it really hit home to me as it opened my eyes to where I was and where I’m at. I didn’t adjust it as I’ve done before for language as I needed to hear/read it as written.
While I know I still have a long way to go, two more months might minimum in the leg brace and PT through December at a minimum, I’ve found purpose again and will continue to improve.
You don't change when you're comfortable.
You don't change when it's "kinda bad."
You change when you hate your life so much you feel fucking disgusted with yourself.
When you look in the mirror and can't stand what you see.
When the way you're living makes you sick to your stomach.
When the cost of staying the same feels worse than the pain of changing.
That's the switch.
That's the breaking point.
That's when shit changes.
So if you're there now…
Good.
It means you're ready.
Ready to rebuild.
Ready to create the life you actually want.
Disgust isn't the end.
It's the beginning of everything you ever wanted.
~ Andy Frisella