I SUCCEEDED ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I left my phone out yesterday when going to bed!

I woke up, did my own rituals, took my first dopamine cold shower ... 💦💦💦💦💦

Ready for the last 5/5 day happy and with a new AHA . The trash bags....I realized a big thing. I'm not a hoarder, I'm not lazy. I was stuck by the window looking my mum go with something in her hands (the trashes) and came back with empty hands. My 4yr old me have been carrying this sight 62yrs and now I realized ...the idea of people leaving with something in their hands means everybody can leave when ever they want, the door is open. But only a couple of years have I started keeping things in my home. To barricade me inside and others out. JT asked me while we talked what would I like to say to me, the 4yr old. I told him " my mum loved me, saw me and heard me always in the best way she could after experiensing so traumatic childhood. She did what she was able. She came back. It wasn't anything to blame or ignore me. " and now I want to add a couple of things...I wish I didn't have to experience all the shit I went through after that year I was 4, but now I understand. I told my mother has Alzheimer's, but I know those words are her words I heard 💖🙏🏽 I am so grateful to each and everyone of these magical 5-days🙏🏽💖Bless you all 💖 thank you thank you thank you

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I SUCCEEDED ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️