Today would've been my 25th wedding anniversary to my first husband and given the season, it's given me pause to reflect. This is a day I notice but don't think about much, but given the energetic weight of the last week and what has been asked of us by the fall equinox, full moon and Chiron's return to Aries it makes sense that this came up for a look in my conscious mind. As I reflect back on me then and me now, I have so much love, gratitude, and compassion for her. At first she was willing to ignore the signs that maybe this wasn't the right union (he was kind, respectful, diplomatic, friendly, and very social after all). Even though he had so many good qualities he also didn't always prioritize her (his job and social life often won out). But in the end, she listened to her intuition and truth even though no one could understand and told her not to go... This was the first I chose myself and it felt very scary and isolating. But, everyday I wake up grateful that I did. Grateful that I had a choice. 💗 And, I'm going to go back to the lessons from Chiron in Aries for a moment (if you missed the post yesterday, click on the link above). We've been in this energy since 2018 and it will remain until April of 2027. This last time around we have an opportunity to connect with the wounds connected to having the right to exist, take up space, take action, and be ourselves. 25 years ago I struggled with this and my divorce was the first step to reclaiming myself. That was 2008. I started my emotional and spiritual healing journey in 2012, but it wasn't until 2024 during my Chiron return that I had to confront all of this head on because I couldn't ignore, shove down or dismiss my feelings anymore. I had to walk through many fires, be broken open and rise like a phoenix again several times, but it was so worth it. Every tear, every primal scream, every awareness and acknowledgement gifted me with confidence, trust, faith, knowing and love for myself, the journey and the collective I wouldn't have received otherwise. 🤍🤍🤍

I was recently at a gathering with friends and got called out for saying what everyone was thinking. A few years ago, this probably would've freaked me out and caused some level of fight or flight internally while outside I tried to act normal. I don't feel this way anymore. I confidently speak my truth and received that feedback in my mind as, "Heck yes!!" I'm not afraid to use my voice because I've done the work. Watch the video and afterwards let me know how you would've handled getting called out twice.

Our path has moved us from Accessing Your Truth to turning over the next stone, Reveal Your Proof. If you missed the that, you can click on Stone 1: Accessing Your Truth in categories and see related posts. Once you get comfortable with looking inward at emotions, feelings, and starting to really see ourselves, the next step is to provide proof. Our brains are wired to look for evidence AND they're also wired toward a negativity bias to keep us alive. So, we tend to focus more on the negative and less on the positive. BUT we can change that! 🥳 Our beautiful brains can easily be retrained and rewired when we place our attention and energy in different areas. The midlife dip in confidence is real for so many women, but I know you've done so many hard things in your life. 💥 This is a powerful exercise in revealing your proof. 🔎🔎🔎 Sit with paper or a notebook (better if your write rather than type or voice note). Give yourself a few minutes to reflect on what you've done in your life that was hard. ANYTHING at all. Free write that list. Once you've got down everything you can think of, read it out loud. How do you feel? What emotions surfaced? Write that down. let yourself feel them and don't bypass anything. You may think of more and want to add them- that's normal. Add them. Now I want you to read this list aloud every day for a week. Notice how the feelings and emotions might change. Record this daily for a week and see what it reveals. 🤍🤍🤍 I'm going to share my list below with you. I've never shared this with anyone before so it's in the raw and vulnerable space. In no particular order: - Natural birth x2 and pulled my daughter out myself - 2 miscarriages between my kids - Still active at 51 (snowboarding, mountain biking, hiking, etc.) - Long health journey with EBV (hormone issues, Epstein Barr Virus, Lyme, and Covid) - Addressing my trauma/ taking ownership and responsibility for my life - Went away to college knowing that my parents couldn't help me financially - Got divorced from college sweetheart after 6+ years because I evolved and that relationship wasn't serving me - Got remarried. - Worked through marital ups and downs - Started multiple businesses (some very successful and some not but I learned so much from the failures)  - Moved a bunch of times and started over - Asked for a raises in my consulting business because I knew my worth - Chose myself when no one else was supporting me - Forgave people who've hurt or betrayed me - Let people go that weren't good for me - Faced and integrated my shadows - Pivoted away from what was comfortable and familiar, and what I was professionally known for to dive into something completely different and authentic to me - Biggest: Faced one of my biggest fear- being honest and vulnerable w/parents